From the i answer i posted to the awesome comments on my previous post:
Dear all, thank you for a warm and loving welcome!
About the profile pic - you're right ... It was a cowardly mistake and I'm terribly embarrassed, someone was even nice enough to mail me about it too.
I'm suffering from several diagnosed Panic Disorders ( http://bit.ly/7zDUaL ) and went into a full attack ( http://bit.ly/tUAXm ) when I "got busted" but after two Xanax I was able to admit it to you all, and write this apology that I PRAY you'll accept and not hate me for...
It's REALLY not that I wanted you to think I was that Shannon. It's partly because I was afraid i'd be spottet by my BF (or what he is now, he's freezing to be around even tho I hold and kiss him, he seems so angry all the time) that I just didnt have the nerve to show my face right now.
I do have ... something ... going on with his kid brother, but If he knows about that, I'd be in the hospital now ... not that we've been together like that, bro and me, but we're surely sending red-hot signals and touching each other casually when we're around, so I'm fighting my lust with my common sense and it's killing me...
I sooo need to tell someone about it all, and will on the blog soon, but the reason for my cowardly use of that pic was fear, not to make me someone I'm not, please believe me - I'm so sorry Shannon, forgive me :(
I will add you all as my buddys and put a lot more links on my blogroll, because you're right - there are so many helpful, sweet, loving, informative ... and hot people writing here.
So I feel so "right" getting the nerve up to do this blog, because I hope to be able help or give advice to someone - make a diff 'y know? I sure have my own problems as you can see, and low self esteem now too, so finding that people want to comment on *my* blog makes me soooo happy.
Thank you so much to you all - It meant so much to me you commented that I ... well, cried but thats perhaps also because I feel so alone sometimes and when someone wants to talk to me, when my BF won't, I just get so emotional ... love you all very much!
I'm Brady, 16 and gay ... NOT always easy :) I'm not "Out", but my closest friends know. I'll write about my experiences VERY openly and honest :) But I truly hope to help other teen guys, who are struggling with ... anything! I'm told I give really good advice, 'cause I've loved, been loved, hated and acted like a jerk too. So feel free to write me at my mail addy (see profile) or in the comments. I'll be there for you, for as long as you wish, so just write, You deserve to be happy, OK!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Sorry Shannon for staling your pic - here's why I did it...
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hylo brady
ReplyDeletehrm lets see how do i put this you are a brave man for coming clean in blogworld because sometimes this place can eat even the bravest man alive if you tell a lie. now another thing i can tell you is i use to be a teen adviser and if one you are starting to have another relationship and two falling out of love with your man you might want to end it and mve on. and the question on every one mind is exactly how old is the KID brother but hey this is your life be careful be safe and most of all be honest or it will bite you in the ass look forward to more from you Love<~Peter~>
Brady, Are you going to write anything here? I hope you do.
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